wheeeeee

Woke up very early this morning, but i golek until 7 something... wanted to come to blog a bit but i saw someone's updated blog. Read it very slowly coz i wanted to know everything very clearly what she had stated in the blog...

Damn.. im so happy now... :D

u know, the first thing i did when i got off my bed was to open my picture folder, and look at every collections which i stole from someone's facebook... about 296 pictures.. LOLL
YEEEE.. im a stalker...... i miss her soo much... pai seh.. not a sicko.. hehe

Today is our 6th months... hehe.. i feel bad coz i couldnt accompany her at all.... yesterday was my first day working for her mother at pavilion.... its a tough day, although i had nothing to do.. but my heart had already gone so far up to 7000km away... kept on counting down myself like a sozai at the stall..

Darling... i love you.... thank you for all your support.. i'll find a proper job after this... bit regret for wasting time staying at home just to play games.. wasting parents money now...

i hope... theres more and more MONTHS or ANNIVERSARY for both of us....

love you....

haizz

hiii~~ i'm back!!!

been trying to teach darling how to make curve hook in dota, but it wasn't really that good... due to some problems.. maybe its because of my temper...

shes down again... awww

hopefully i can really control abit when it comes to gaming.

her new semester has just started... she scored actually very good for previous semester, but that isnt what she really wanted to get..... free riders please stay away from my darling... heheh..

will be back again soon

im back!! not gonna let this blog dead again~ hehe

It's been a while (almost 1 month LOL), i haven't been blogging here. Laziness pawned me badly recently, but don't worry, i'm gonna change. hehe. Wish me good luck, interviews are waiting for me now.

In this 1 month time, many things had happened. There were good one and bad one too. Awww.. I wish i can always have the good ones.

Lets just start with the good ones.

First of all, Gotta say good bye to my old phone. YAY! I'VE GOT MY IPhone!!! WUHAHA!! No longer needs to restart cell phone just to receive a message aymore. (Don't really wanna dump my p1i, hehe...mm seh dak. I love it so much T_T)

Second, I finally have the intention, the MOOD to look for a job. Isn't it nice? AHAHAHA... damn, i've wasted almost a year of my life being lifeless staying in front of my pc.

Third, My girlfriend can finally wakes up all by herself. WHEE!~~~ I don't have to worry too much about her anymore. I love you, darling~!!

Ohh damn! only 3 good news? My life is........
SAD!!!
LOL

Time for the bad news.... (Can we skip this? LOL!! I think it's gotta be damn long)

Starting from Jan until now, guess how much is my phone bill? I can buy another phone with that amount of money, it costs me 1.2k LOLL. But it's not gonna happen anymore, i promised my lou po zai not to call too often anymore.

And because of this bill, i have to cancel my plan. My new phone has a contract, which i need to have 100 commitment per month. SMS and International calls are excluded. SO i planned to keep my old sim card at first, because the number is nice, i don't really wanna dump it. My dad is gonna help me to pay for the 65 or 55 commitment for that simcard per month. And then, i can use that amount of money just to sms and make calls with my new sim card. But now... lol... everythings changed.

I just talked to my bro. The sim card is under his name, i've just asked him to help me cancel it, and then make it as a prepaid sim card, coz i really love the number. Then i will ask my friend to take the sim card for me and i will change it to DIGI. DARLING!! IT'S DIGIIIIIIIIIII TIME!! Hopefully it works lol.

I'm GETTING FATTER!!! This is suppose to be in the good news. But, due to my imbalanced body size, my only working pants is like it is gonna explode when i put it on. DAMN!! And i couldn't find any good pants at all. I need at least 2 or 3 more!!!! Someone tell me where i can get all these shitty working pants. URGENT

Recently, i kept having the same dreams. I wish i can always dream of my girlfriend, but things will always happen very differently. I dreamt that i got bitten by dogs. The stories are almost the same, same dogs? same shit? and the weirdest thing is the way i react while i got bitten. I could feel the pain, but i was acting like i couldn't feel anything. Its like, im waiting for the dog to bite my body off part by part. Damn, whenever i dreamt about this again, i feel damn uncomfortable after waking up. I really wanna know the meaning of that dream.

Besides this, i always quarrel with some of my (big and complicated family) family members in the dream too. Luckily it's not with my own family members but cousins or uncles lol.. Still, I hope all these craps will not come true. Please don't!!

Happy 2 Months Anniversary~~

Whee~~ its our 2 months anniversary, Darling!!! We did it! And we're gonna make it BETTER and LONG LASTING!!

Didn't know darling and i can make it as well, but i'm happy we were still together now coz i really love her soo much. I'm not gonna let her go this time, all i want is just HER. As u all know we are in a distance relationship, a couple which cannot date and cannot see each other T_T. Thanks to the advance technology, i can see my darling almost everyday since we started dating.

Heheh~~ normally people would usually go out to celebrate. But, alaaaa!! Due to the imba distance, we have to stay home chatting and webbing each other as usual. Never Mind, i promise I'll make something better and i'll give her a surprise when she got back home in July. I hope darling will like it~ HAPPY 2 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY!! Whee~~ We're gonna have an infinity anniversary. (only she know what it is lol) I'm happy i got u, seriously!!

During the night, darling and i were discussing about the past. How we got closer to each other, things that happen at that time, and what were in our mind. We actually did that before, but not really that detail. Like we are gonna split it into different parts and enjoy them everynight before we go to bed.

In the middle of the conversation, one of my friend suddenly gave me a youtube link. Its a cs pwnage clip. He wanted me to see how people react, they way the walk and how they deal with the critical situation.

As u may know, theres alot of other clips will be showned at the right side. I've found alot of funny animal clips. Some are fainting goat. Ever heard of it before? Hhehe.. check it out when u have nothing to do. At that time, I saw an interesting topic which is "A shock in the nuts", i was like. OH GOSH, THATS GONNA HURT. that is a must see clip. So i quickly pressed it, paused it, and waited until it finished loading then only i watched it.

Because of the problem of my pc, whatever im watching, people who skype me are able to hear it as well. When i started watching this movie, i almost died because of exhaustion. I couldn't stop laughing and i kept repeating the same clip.

Then my darling heard it, she yelled: "Baby!! what's wrong, why are you laughing like that". She was blogging at that time. Felt sorry interrupting her but i really cannot TAHAN at all. I quickly shared the topic and asked my darling to find the topic at youtube (aussie and msia, youtube links are different -_-).

The story is like this.

There were 4 pigs in the field, 2 busy eating next to a spiky fence. And the other 2, was busy finding a good spot for mating. LOL!!! then, the female pig kept on rewinding while the male pig was riding behind it until the male pig's big fat ass was parking at the fence. Then, the pig was trying to move its ass again. Suddenly i heard an imba voice, the male pig was shouting damnnn loud and ran away straight.

Ended up with three other pigs were shocked and ran away, and a supposed-to-be-happy-pig ran away sadly with swollen balls.

I was like, WTF!!! hahahahhaha!!!! u guys must really watch this clip "A shock in the nuts"

Darling kept trying to stop me from watching that clip, coz of the way i laughed was so awful. HAHAHA. She cannot TAHAN. PITY-NYAA piggy

-random

A week ago, my dad came to kl for his body check up together with 2 youngest uncles who i don't really like them. They were so evil, they were always so bloody damn free all the time, talk craps, comment everything around you and show off their things, but whenever payments were made, they would suddenly became busy and hide somewhere else poking their bloody cell phone. Been watching them for years, but we can't do anything coz we are kid, we have to listen to whatever bull shit they said. But i'm happy also coz i have a great and kind father.

When he arrived, he tried to contact me but failed for several times due to my PMS cell phone. Until when we met, i told him about my phone's problem then he offered me with a new phone. I didn't even spent a single second to think about it straightly i rejected it. Don't ask me why, coz i also don't know why i would do this. hehe.. imba kid.

Few days after my dad went back to my hometown, mom gave my sister a call. She tried to remind her of our both "chinese birthday" which is not following the normal date but "chinese date". Elephant spent me nice food on her chinese birthday, and she also bought me a present before my birthday. Its a Casio watch. She called me when i was watching movie at cinema just to tell me she bought me a present, and she even told me the price of it. How imba is my sister--Elephant. ehe.. I don't use watch, but i love it. Will try to get myself used to it somedays.

Oh, other than that, i have few more presents from my darling from aussie too. Steph ma brought them back to M'sia weeks ago. She teased me through skype pretending she didn't see any presents which steph got for me as my bday presents. I was like "erhhh.... what should i say now?" hahhaa...

We set a time to meet each other at Time Squares, i was almost late to meet Steph ma due to my exhausted body. I fell asleep after making a call to comfirm whether she was free to meet me up in front of the main entrance of Times Squares or not. I was so worried, and i rushed to taxi station with Rm3 in my wallet. LOL!!! Until i realised it, i run back to 7-11 to get money from atm and rushed back to the station again. Oh gosh, i was supposed to reach there earlier since i was asking help from other people. Luckily i did not have to wait too long for a taxi, I immediately texted Steph ma in the taxi to tell her when i would reach there.

10 more minutes then i would have to say bye bye to my presents. T_T I finally reached there at 2:50pm (she said we can meet at 2-3pm). I then immediately called her, but..... no 1 answering. I was soooo damn depressed at that time, so i tried to explain this to my darling by texting her. While i was still texting, a call interrupted my typing. But i was so excited that time, hehe.. Steph ma was calling!!!! She appologized to me and told me that her secretary would meet me in a moment. I was like "erhh... im the 1 who is suppose to apologize for being so late, isn't it?

2 mins later, a lady holding a pack of thing came towards me and asked :"Are you Sam?"

I replied :"Yeap, and u r?"

She said :"Oh this is from Angie."

Handsome mona: "Ohh.. thank you very much" and she walked off back to the lift

Then i was wondering, why she knew i was sam. Steph ma must have told her something about me. "Thin, nerd, sozai? bla bla bla... then i started to laugh and rushed to taxi station. I wanna get back home as soon as possible with my precious birthday presents"

Darling was in the presentation. after reporting this to her, i then went to TAPAO food.

I saw a bottle of chocolates and sweets, darling warned me to brush my teeth oftenly. hehhee. A big pack of present wrapped with black paper and tied with a colouring string which darling told me that can only be opened on my birthday (i then put it nicely somewhere at my cupboard). And lastly, i saw 1 more thing. It was wrapped with black paper too, and its shape was like an egg. When i saw that thing, i laughed. The way it was wrapped, was soo awful. ehehe. (sry darling)

Darling told me to open it. I was hoping that it won't look like the way it was wrapped. ehehe..(Evil mona) OHH!! Thx god, its a cute dragon sitting in an egg. I love it, it is sooo cute. A word April is written at the front. Below theres a love shape diamond too... hehe.. I love you darling. Thank you so much, i love all the presents.

Can't wait to open the last present now T_T.

Oh ya.. hehe.. funny shits happen again. Elephant asked me to return her something coz of the expensive present. I told her i will treat her to have a good meal. As u know, my mind is full of shit, i always talk in a very different way. I told her to contact Mr. Jo to make a table reservation. Her first reaction was "MRR JO??, who is that and why i wanna contact him?" I laughed very loudly coz the way she react and talked was soooo damn funny, and then i told her, "That is JOGOYA, a place where u always go last time! STUPID" She ejek me like mad after that lol.

The next day, as usual, waited her for dinner at home. She came home late at 9 something while i was busy chatting with my darling. I dragged until 10 something then we only go out to eat coz i mm seh dak to leave my darling. While i was busy eating, she suddenly asked me something. She said: "Wei, did u call Mr Jo?
I was so curious, and i immediately replied: "What Mr Jo."

WTFF!! i kena my own trick. She burst out laughing, i then only rememmbered what the heck Mr Jo was.

hehee.. Just wanna tell u people, next time don't always make fun of people. Someday u will kena very gao gao.

april fools? dont mess with the wrong guy

4/1/2009 12:05:49 AM ' ' h3nRy actaullywei actually im gayi love u so muchsince the day i met u [森] = =meh lanlol
' ' h3nRy yeala<3ngo hou zhong yi nei [森] waur display picture
' ' h3nRy oi dont change topic :(
[森] hahahaa ' ' h3nRy bu hao awn 1NOT FUN LARfucklhappy april foolo0obyebye i go confess to others first
[森] ajahahahahadiu lei
' ' h3nRy LOL u knw my display pic apa tu? [森] bull shitlolno bullshit ' ' h3nRy AHAHsmartwehwat happened to u and steph ?
[森] =.=something wrong ' ' h3nRy forget it if u don't feel like telling , just feel like concern it mind to tell ?maybe i could share my opinion with u [森] i just feel like... ' ' h3nRy long distance ? [森] erhhduno.. ' ' h3nRy huh okkcalm
[森] im confused ' ' h3nRy about ? u don't feel like continue the relationship ? or u just cant stand the long distance [森] i also dont know ' ' h3nRy /swt chill first , take time to thinkdo appreciate
[森] i did ngo hou luen- - ' ' h3nRy man man leievery relationship also got problem 1see how u solve it onlya good relationship end up like this for me = a waste , so please do think propely what do u want and try to tell her honestly okkk ?


4/1/2009 12:27:44 AM [Stephanie] has been added to the conversation.

' ' h3nRy -.-
[Stephanie]... [森] HappY APRIL FOOLS DAY
[Stephanie]i wanna sleep la [森] AHAHAHHA REVENGE
[Stephanie]april foolLOL
' ' h3nRy LOL
[Stephanie]HAHAH ' ' h3nRy AHAHAH STEPH [Stephanie]LOL
' ' h3nRy o0o fuckfuckfuck [Stephanie]:) ' ' h3nRy fuck fjc fasasdWALAO [森] ahahhaa
[Stephanie]HAHAHA ' ' h3nRy dont wan help dddddddddddd"$(_&£*()()"$& [Stephanie] sorry henry-chan :( [森] HAPpY FOOLS DAY ' ' h3nRy LOL
[Stephanie]you almost cause our breakup ' ' h3nRy DONT COPY PASTE IT [Stephanie]:(:(:( ' ' h3nRy TO UR BLOG [森] happy april fools day
[Stephanie]HEHEHHAHAHACANNOt ' ' h3nRy AHAHAHA
[Stephanie]I MUSTLOL ' ' h3nRy fs'adfSFGfs],;adfasdfasfadfzxczxcvzcbdfazxcLOL [Stephanie]:(

Steph's side of the convo here.

Dream and Monster

For me,a dream is a very mysterious thing. It can affect certain of people's life very easily all the time, it can make a person happy, sometimes depressed, and sometimes scare and shock due to the material contained. Some might think that it is just a bull shit and never bother what their dreams are about.

Some says, people only will have dreams when they are tired. That is wrong. I remembered i've read an article somewhere, a scientist said we do have at least 5 dreams each day, just that we don't remember them sometimes.

I find myself enjoying having dreams, i always have random dreams. They can be so random until you will laugh if i tell u what they are about. All these are making me very happy coz they are all about good things, and the most important part is that my darling is always included in it.

Today, i tried to sleep earlier at 3 something in the morning, and i did it, i feel asleep. But then, an imba random dream woke me up before my alarm, which is at 6:30am. I promised to wake up to prepare breakfast together with my sister.

Back to the dream.

There were so many girls appeared in my dream, and they were all like attracted by me. Whenever they passed through me (i'm sitting at an outdoor corner at a restaurant), they will stare at me like they wanted to eat me alive. Some even take off their clothes and do some move trying to get my attention.

The first thing in my mind is that, something wrong with all these people. And i felt like someone is trying to test me or something i don't really know. I thought my girlfriend was the 1 who hired them to test me (of course this is only a dream, not what i really think about in my real life. hehe.. in case darling will angry me later) So i didn't really care whatever they are trying to do or how they really look like. And there is 1 more thing i didn't tell my darling, that is, whenever i see any girls, they remind me of my darling coz i don't need them, i already have one who is the best in the world and she is my darling. Finally good things came into my dream, my darling appeared at last. She was wearing very sexy clothes, walking like a model towards my table. I couldn't resist at all, i put all my concentration on my darling. I told myself, i'm gonna eat her this time. When she reached to my table, i woke up by my cute little monster =.= I was like "WTFFFFFFFFFFFF NOT AGAIN!! NOT THIS TIME!!"

This is totally POTONG STEAM. I was soooooo frustrated at that time, but a few sec later, I found that it was just a dream, i sat ony my bed and started to laugh at myself. Then i couldn't sleep back again, because of the monster. GRRRRR

Lastly i have to feed my monster again with my imagination. It was so hungry after the dream lol...Aww man.... I did this too much this recently, i didn't want to but it just happen in a sudden lol. You won't starve a little kid, will you? Maybe only my darling will know what it is. If theres someone else reading my blog here, wanted to know what it is, msn me? LOLLLLL! DONT LAUGH AT ME darling, i swear, i didn't want it to be this way. AHAHAHAHAHAHA

This is why i'm here to blog early in the morning. And i feel like sharing this, not too shy to tell people at all. lol.. Dunno wht happen to me.

everyday sunrise

Wow, steph ma visited my darling this week. Im so happy now, coz my darling had received her 18th birthday present already. That is a gaming keyboard, which i always wanted to get 1 for myself but because of my money usage, i didn't buy it coz i dun wanna hear complains from my dad anymore. But when i knew there was someone could help me to deliver things for her, i immediately bought it coz she loves it so much.

Her birthday is actually at the date of 5th of June, but sadly i couldn't meet her coz she is still studying at melbourne. So i have to kacau kacau steph ma to ask her to be my courier since she will go there.

Used to not agree people to get a gaming keyboard, coz they are actually all the same, except for mouse or other gaming gears. But this time, i changed my mind. Coz it makes its owner happy, hehe.. like my darling.

Lets talk about other things now.

Recently, there were so many interesting dota replays posted online. And because of that, my sleeping time is switched back to the morning again. I'ts been years already i tried so hard just to make it back to normal, but it became worse.

Aww man, i want to be a normal person again. I want my proper meals, i want to get fatter so that i won't look like a skeleton king anymore.

This morning, as usual, i was watching replays until 4am. I got bored, coz i have nothing to do anymore. So i tried to sleep.

Miracle happens, i fell asleep!!! I'm suppose to be happy, but a familiar song woke up at 6a.m. A song which i told my darling that was romantic while we were kissing till 6a.m and suddenly there were people started to sing for us. I guess only she knows what song is that. hehe...

I couldn't sleep back. I rolled on the bed for a very long time. I gave up and i went back to my pc. I was so bored and i didn't know what to do. I randomly clicked all those folders in my pc. OHHH!! My download was finished, its the blackshot installer, a FPS online game. Within 2 minutes, i was already in the game. As you know, there is not much gaming geeks like me can stand until sunrise, so there were only a few of players (but PRO PLAYERS) in the capture flag mode. Slowly, from feeding i played until i got 1st place. Then i looked at my mobile phone, what the hell its already 8 something, i quickly stop, switch off my pc and try to sleep again, coz i need to reach sungei wang at 1pm later.

20 minutes later, i went back to my pc again LOL. i couldn't sleep anymore, i don't know why. So i decided to come here to blog a while since i have nothing to do all the time.

Don't know whether i will try to sleep again or not, but for safety, i dropped an offline message to my darling, asked her to wake me up while she wakes up.

After these weekend, i will be very busy. There are so many things havent done yet, and i'm suppose to finish part of them last week. I forgot to buy printer, and i have only 3-4 shirs which are not enough for me to wear to work per week. This time i must get everything done, otherwise, all my "i want this i want this" will be just a dream. I can't be lifeless anymore. Starting from today, i must at least sleep before 3am. Darling pls jia you, study well and prove to people they are wrong. And i must jia you too

I want this I want this and I want this

Aww man! I'm still in the mood of fooling around, wasting my dad's money and spending my entire life in front of my pc. I don't feel like working at all, but that's the only way to visit my darling at Aussie, and many gifts that surprise her too. I'm confused, I don't know what to do at all, which should i pick? Sales? Office Work? or erhh...... anyone can help me? I don't have the courage to step myself into the working world. Is there any short cut? Give me some hints, but not going back to the horrifying bakery and something that is legal please?

In order to fulfil all these imba dreams, i must get rid of my laziness. I've never touched any of those house work befores while i was in Sabah, so my 1st plan is to start from housework. LOL!!

These few days, i was trying to clean all the mess in my apartment while housemate and my sister had gone to work. As usual, home alone again. Some shit happens. I would laugh like mad whenever it suddenly pop up in my mind. I was pawned by a plastic bag. It is just a simple plastic bag, BUT with some egg shells and left food which was starting to rot. OMFG!! My sister did it again, she have forgotten to dump all those easy rotting rubbish away.

Now i know why my darling always ejek me lembik. While i was trying to wash the dishes, an aweful smell STROKE my nose. I quickly ran away from kitchen, then i hold my breath and rush back in and dump the plastic bag farer. I then continue my job.

I wonder if you all have noticed about this or not, when you are so desperate for something, you usually won't be able to get it. UNTIL u've already given it up, things that you were trying hard to get before this, will be everywhere surrounding you.

Weather here were so damn hot days before, was hoping for wind and rain at all time, but nothing happened. Until when i got back to my job--dish washing, wind started to blow, i felt cold, coz i was half naked. WOW, it was nice, and i was gonna start to sing. Within a second, i smelt something familiar. WHAT THE FUCK, the wind came into the kitchen with the aweful rotten food smell. I almost puked, kept on making the EOKKKK voice in the kitchen. Finally, i gave up my 1st starting job at home and ran back to my room with imba mood.

I complained this to my darling and she laughed at me T_T. But that's good for me, coz i love to see her laugh or smile, i always want her to be happy.

Forget about all these funny shits. Lets get back to the JOB. I'm gonna tell u about my NEW PLAN.

Hopefully it works this time. This weekend, I will go for shirt hunting. I forgot what people usually called that shirt as, so lets use my english again, IT'S THE FORMAL SHIRT. And i'm gonna get a printer too, for my resume, cv, bla bla bla.....

Then, i will make my calling starting from next monday. Aww.. susah my eyes, have to scan news papers for job vacancies again. I hope companies today need a handsomeboy, that will be easier for me XD. FULL OF SHIT!! (darling: WTF, mama give again?)

But before all these, hehehe... LET'S GO JAP FOOD HUNTING. I WANT TO WASTE MONEY FOR EXPENSIVE FOOD AGAIN. (hmm... why i used waste, it's because it is really a waste when good food come to me coz it won't make changes no matter how hard i try to become fat) I miss wasabi, i miss raw food, i miss, erh.. seaweeds? All these might be banned in July, so i have to rush and rush and rush before my resources are depleted. ANYONE WHO LOVE ALL THESE soon-will-be-banned-food PLEASE CONTACT ME, my phone is 24/7!!

Darling please forgive me, hehe... i can't give them up, coz i really love to eat jap food.

OHHH YAA!! There's 2 more things i almost forgot. The 1st is, I hope that, aussie can always have discounts for everything. Darling is suffering now T_T, she doesn't have much pocket money per month and she needs alot of chocolates. She is hoping to get fatter at all time, PLEASE GIVE HER DISCOUNTS. And the 2nd is, i hope steph ma will not be an accountant when she deals with her daughter's problem. GIVE HER MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Aww... maybe 3? hehe.. I hope i can get a job as soon as possible. There's really so many things waiting for me to pay for my darling now. hehe..

hehe

nothing special. I'm still lifeless.. Finding job at the moment. wish me?

imba languages

Stephanie and i were talking to each other with many different languages today. It includes english ( 1 of her lanc tool), mandrin, cantonese, hokkien and hakka.

Same as usual, we both kept bull shitting around. Other than chinese, mandrin and hakka, i suck at all others. Trying to improve them now, so i can shoot at ppl.

As u all know, im old and im not good at other languaes, so it will be a lil hard for me to catch up when they are speaking. And because of that, alot of funny shits happen when i talk or type. Steph couldnt stop laughing, again =.= .

Although im not good at other languages, but u people dont try to scold me bad words. I know all bad words of other languages including tamil. Everything starts from the bad thing when it comes to language learning, don't you agree with that? That is the easiest for people who wanna learn new language.

Damn, i feel like learning all other languages now. My cousin from Canada kept on kacau-ing me by typing japs to me today. He even knows how to speak spanish too. WTF!! all these language classes are provided by his high school, FOC. Jealous-NYA

Awww, regret for not studying well now!! i want to learn!!! i want to studyyyy!! MOMMYYY!!
i hope im still young. hehe...

1st post?

I couldn't believe that i'm here to blog again, not really like writing because im just too lazy to use my brain. Used to love writing alot about whatever happened in my life and my thought to express myself when i was still studying at high school, but all these can only be read by teachers whom i hate the most and be seen only in exam papers (such a problem kid). As time passes by, i started trying not to do so, it is because i find it stupid, it hurts people's feeling, and i might get myself in troubles.

My girlfriend steph, she loves writing and she always update her blog from time to time. I promised her to start blogging a week ago. In order to see her smile, i have finally registered an account here to start writing again. Of course, this will be different from what i've written to my teachers a couple years ago.

If you are close enough to me, you will find out that i'm a silly boy whose mind is full of shit, talk craps all the time and always fool around never wanna try to do anything seriously. My first blog is a very good reference.

But theres reasons why i wanted to write stupid things in my 1st blog. First is that my girlfriend--steph was forcing me to hand up a post( any post) before she sleep. Second is that, i don't really know what i should write, so i decided to bullshit and put my quote which is "im handsome" in the blog. And lastly is that, i want her to be happy. As i mentioned justnow, she loves blogging, and whenever i show her my imba pose(handsome), she will always laugh like mad, so i finally made up my mind to write an imba story as my first blog.

And now, im here again is because, i really wanted to start blogging like she does. I find it interesting, and when u cant fall sleep late at night, nobody is around, this will be the best place to express myself and fast forward my boring time.

Months ago, i always told her that i was so jealous because kc( steph's friend) could be that close to her and he was the only person that i know, she would talk to when she was down. I always wanted to see her cry. LOL, sounds like im a sohai freak but all i actually want is to get her trust, she will find me when she needs someone to talk to.

Weeks ago, i finally saw her crying. But i was not happy at all. I felt sad and depressed even though i have finally get her trust and became her boyfriend. I don't know what to do at all, i have never experienced it before( not including bully ah moi sampai tangis). After a long while, she finally stopped crying and fell asleep. I could not forget the scene when her tears dropping nonstop. I then talked to myself, i will never let this happen anymore.

Whenever i think about it, i won't be able to sleep again. She always tells me she will be fine, but i know she is lying to me again, trying to stop me from worrying about her. How could i not worry about her? She is my girlfriend, and she is at melbourne now, i can't do a thing to help her out when she is in trouble. I find myself so useless, don't know anything, can't solve problems and bla bla bla( too much to write). Hoping to go there as soon as possible, i wanted to stay with her, i wanted to hug her, kiss her and accompany her.

I hope she can be more optimistic( doesn't mean she is pessimistic), i hope she is fine now, i hope she can sleep tight everyday, i hope that her study won't be affected by shitty problems. And i love her as i always do. I love you steph

handsome boy

Woke up in the morning, and i saw my cellphone's sms signal. Tried to crawl to the pc table with my zombie hands( lifeless gaming nerd) to get my cellphone. AHH finally, i got my lovely P1i.

Oh, its stephanie!! I quickly opened the message, and i got stunned for a while. She told me i am soooooo handsome. I was like "erh, now she only noticed that?" Forgive her, coz she gave me her cute little mushy before she left.