For me,a dream is a very mysterious thing. It can affect certain of people's life very easily all the time, it can make a person happy, sometimes depressed, and sometimes scare and shock due to the material contained. Some might think that it is just a bull shit and never bother what their dreams are about.
Some says, people only will have dreams when they are tired. That is wrong. I remembered i've read an article somewhere, a scientist said we do have at least 5 dreams each day, just that we don't remember them sometimes.
I find myself enjoying having dreams, i always have random dreams. They can be so random until you will laugh if i tell u what they are about. All these are making me very happy coz they are all about good things, and the most important part is that my darling is always included in it.
Today, i tried to sleep earlier at 3 something in the morning, and i did it, i feel asleep. But then, an imba random dream woke me up before my alarm, which is at 6:30am. I promised to wake up to prepare breakfast together with my sister.
Back to the dream.
There were so many girls appeared in my dream, and they were all like attracted by me. Whenever they passed through me (i'm sitting at an outdoor corner at a restaurant), they will stare at me like they wanted to eat me alive. Some even take off their clothes and do some move trying to get my attention.
The first thing in my mind is that, something wrong with all these people. And i felt like someone is trying to test me or something i don't really know. I thought my girlfriend was the 1 who hired them to test me (of course this is only a dream, not what i really think about in my real life. hehe.. in case darling will angry me later) So i didn't really care whatever they are trying to do or how they really look like. And there is 1 more thing i didn't tell my darling, that is, whenever i see any girls, they remind me of my darling coz i don't need them, i already have one who is the best in the world and she is my darling. Finally good things came into my dream, my darling appeared at last. She was wearing very sexy clothes, walking like a model towards my table. I couldn't resist at all, i put all my concentration on my darling. I told myself, i'm gonna eat her this time. When she reached to my table, i woke up by my cute little monster =.= I was like "WTFFFFFFFFFFFF NOT AGAIN!! NOT THIS TIME!!"
This is totally POTONG STEAM. I was soooooo frustrated at that time, but a few sec later, I found that it was just a dream, i sat ony my bed and started to laugh at myself. Then i couldn't sleep back again, because of the monster. GRRRRR
Lastly i have to feed my monster again with my imagination. It was so hungry after the dream lol...Aww man.... I did this too much this recently, i didn't want to but it just happen in a sudden lol. You won't starve a little kid, will you? Maybe only my darling will know what it is. If theres someone else reading my blog here, wanted to know what it is, msn me? LOLLLLL! DONT LAUGH AT ME darling, i swear, i didn't want it to be this way. AHAHAHAHAHAHA
This is why i'm here to blog early in the morning. And i feel like sharing this, not too shy to tell people at all. lol.. Dunno wht happen to me.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Saturday, March 28, 2009
everyday sunrise
Wow, steph ma visited my darling this week. Im so happy now, coz my darling had received her 18th birthday present already. That is a gaming keyboard, which i always wanted to get 1 for myself but because of my money usage, i didn't buy it coz i dun wanna hear complains from my dad anymore. But when i knew there was someone could help me to deliver things for her, i immediately bought it coz she loves it so much.
Her birthday is actually at the date of 5th of June, but sadly i couldn't meet her coz she is still studying at melbourne. So i have to kacau kacau steph ma to ask her to be my courier since she will go there.
Used to not agree people to get a gaming keyboard, coz they are actually all the same, except for mouse or other gaming gears. But this time, i changed my mind. Coz it makes its owner happy, hehe.. like my darling.
Lets talk about other things now.
Recently, there were so many interesting dota replays posted online. And because of that, my sleeping time is switched back to the morning again. I'ts been years already i tried so hard just to make it back to normal, but it became worse.
Aww man, i want to be a normal person again. I want my proper meals, i want to get fatter so that i won't look like a skeleton king anymore.
This morning, as usual, i was watching replays until 4am. I got bored, coz i have nothing to do anymore. So i tried to sleep.
Miracle happens, i fell asleep!!! I'm suppose to be happy, but a familiar song woke up at 6a.m. A song which i told my darling that was romantic while we were kissing till 6a.m and suddenly there were people started to sing for us. I guess only she knows what song is that. hehe...
I couldn't sleep back. I rolled on the bed for a very long time. I gave up and i went back to my pc. I was so bored and i didn't know what to do. I randomly clicked all those folders in my pc. OHHH!! My download was finished, its the blackshot installer, a FPS online game. Within 2 minutes, i was already in the game. As you know, there is not much gaming geeks like me can stand until sunrise, so there were only a few of players (but PRO PLAYERS) in the capture flag mode. Slowly, from feeding i played until i got 1st place. Then i looked at my mobile phone, what the hell its already 8 something, i quickly stop, switch off my pc and try to sleep again, coz i need to reach sungei wang at 1pm later.
20 minutes later, i went back to my pc again LOL. i couldn't sleep anymore, i don't know why. So i decided to come here to blog a while since i have nothing to do all the time.
Don't know whether i will try to sleep again or not, but for safety, i dropped an offline message to my darling, asked her to wake me up while she wakes up.
After these weekend, i will be very busy. There are so many things havent done yet, and i'm suppose to finish part of them last week. I forgot to buy printer, and i have only 3-4 shirs which are not enough for me to wear to work per week. This time i must get everything done, otherwise, all my "i want this i want this" will be just a dream. I can't be lifeless anymore. Starting from today, i must at least sleep before 3am. Darling pls jia you, study well and prove to people they are wrong. And i must jia you too
Her birthday is actually at the date of 5th of June, but sadly i couldn't meet her coz she is still studying at melbourne. So i have to kacau kacau steph ma to ask her to be my courier since she will go there.
Used to not agree people to get a gaming keyboard, coz they are actually all the same, except for mouse or other gaming gears. But this time, i changed my mind. Coz it makes its owner happy, hehe.. like my darling.
Lets talk about other things now.
Recently, there were so many interesting dota replays posted online. And because of that, my sleeping time is switched back to the morning again. I'ts been years already i tried so hard just to make it back to normal, but it became worse.
Aww man, i want to be a normal person again. I want my proper meals, i want to get fatter so that i won't look like a skeleton king anymore.
This morning, as usual, i was watching replays until 4am. I got bored, coz i have nothing to do anymore. So i tried to sleep.
Miracle happens, i fell asleep!!! I'm suppose to be happy, but a familiar song woke up at 6a.m. A song which i told my darling that was romantic while we were kissing till 6a.m and suddenly there were people started to sing for us. I guess only she knows what song is that. hehe...
I couldn't sleep back. I rolled on the bed for a very long time. I gave up and i went back to my pc. I was so bored and i didn't know what to do. I randomly clicked all those folders in my pc. OHHH!! My download was finished, its the blackshot installer, a FPS online game. Within 2 minutes, i was already in the game. As you know, there is not much gaming geeks like me can stand until sunrise, so there were only a few of players (but PRO PLAYERS) in the capture flag mode. Slowly, from feeding i played until i got 1st place. Then i looked at my mobile phone, what the hell its already 8 something, i quickly stop, switch off my pc and try to sleep again, coz i need to reach sungei wang at 1pm later.
20 minutes later, i went back to my pc again LOL. i couldn't sleep anymore, i don't know why. So i decided to come here to blog a while since i have nothing to do all the time.
Don't know whether i will try to sleep again or not, but for safety, i dropped an offline message to my darling, asked her to wake me up while she wakes up.
After these weekend, i will be very busy. There are so many things havent done yet, and i'm suppose to finish part of them last week. I forgot to buy printer, and i have only 3-4 shirs which are not enough for me to wear to work per week. This time i must get everything done, otherwise, all my "i want this i want this" will be just a dream. I can't be lifeless anymore. Starting from today, i must at least sleep before 3am. Darling pls jia you, study well and prove to people they are wrong. And i must jia you too
Friday, March 20, 2009
I want this I want this and I want this
Aww man! I'm still in the mood of fooling around, wasting my dad's money and spending my entire life in front of my pc. I don't feel like working at all, but that's the only way to visit my darling at Aussie, and many gifts that surprise her too. I'm confused, I don't know what to do at all, which should i pick? Sales? Office Work? or erhh...... anyone can help me? I don't have the courage to step myself into the working world. Is there any short cut? Give me some hints, but not going back to the horrifying bakery and something that is legal please?
In order to fulfil all these imba dreams, i must get rid of my laziness. I've never touched any of those house work befores while i was in Sabah, so my 1st plan is to start from housework. LOL!!
These few days, i was trying to clean all the mess in my apartment while housemate and my sister had gone to work. As usual, home alone again. Some shit happens. I would laugh like mad whenever it suddenly pop up in my mind. I was pawned by a plastic bag. It is just a simple plastic bag, BUT with some egg shells and left food which was starting to rot. OMFG!! My sister did it again, she have forgotten to dump all those easy rotting rubbish away.
Now i know why my darling always ejek me lembik. While i was trying to wash the dishes, an aweful smell STROKE my nose. I quickly ran away from kitchen, then i hold my breath and rush back in and dump the plastic bag farer. I then continue my job.
I wonder if you all have noticed about this or not, when you are so desperate for something, you usually won't be able to get it. UNTIL u've already given it up, things that you were trying hard to get before this, will be everywhere surrounding you.
Weather here were so damn hot days before, was hoping for wind and rain at all time, but nothing happened. Until when i got back to my job--dish washing, wind started to blow, i felt cold, coz i was half naked. WOW, it was nice, and i was gonna start to sing. Within a second, i smelt something familiar. WHAT THE FUCK, the wind came into the kitchen with the aweful rotten food smell. I almost puked, kept on making the EOKKKK voice in the kitchen. Finally, i gave up my 1st starting job at home and ran back to my room with imba mood.
I complained this to my darling and she laughed at me T_T. But that's good for me, coz i love to see her laugh or smile, i always want her to be happy.
Forget about all these funny shits. Lets get back to the JOB. I'm gonna tell u about my NEW PLAN.
Hopefully it works this time. This weekend, I will go for shirt hunting. I forgot what people usually called that shirt as, so lets use my english again, IT'S THE FORMAL SHIRT. And i'm gonna get a printer too, for my resume, cv, bla bla bla.....
Then, i will make my calling starting from next monday. Aww.. susah my eyes, have to scan news papers for job vacancies again. I hope companies today need a handsomeboy, that will be easier for me XD. FULL OF SHIT!! (darling: WTF, mama give again?)
But before all these, hehehe... LET'S GO JAP FOOD HUNTING. I WANT TO WASTE MONEY FOR EXPENSIVE FOOD AGAIN. (hmm... why i used waste, it's because it is really a waste when good food come to me coz it won't make changes no matter how hard i try to become fat) I miss wasabi, i miss raw food, i miss, erh.. seaweeds? All these might be banned in July, so i have to rush and rush and rush before my resources are depleted. ANYONE WHO LOVE ALL THESE soon-will-be-banned-food PLEASE CONTACT ME, my phone is 24/7!!
Darling please forgive me, hehe... i can't give them up, coz i really love to eat jap food.
OHHH YAA!! There's 2 more things i almost forgot. The 1st is, I hope that, aussie can always have discounts for everything. Darling is suffering now T_T, she doesn't have much pocket money per month and she needs alot of chocolates. She is hoping to get fatter at all time, PLEASE GIVE HER DISCOUNTS. And the 2nd is, i hope steph ma will not be an accountant when she deals with her daughter's problem. GIVE HER MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
Aww... maybe 3? hehe.. I hope i can get a job as soon as possible. There's really so many things waiting for me to pay for my darling now. hehe..
In order to fulfil all these imba dreams, i must get rid of my laziness. I've never touched any of those house work befores while i was in Sabah, so my 1st plan is to start from housework. LOL!!
These few days, i was trying to clean all the mess in my apartment while housemate and my sister had gone to work. As usual, home alone again. Some shit happens. I would laugh like mad whenever it suddenly pop up in my mind. I was pawned by a plastic bag. It is just a simple plastic bag, BUT with some egg shells and left food which was starting to rot. OMFG!! My sister did it again, she have forgotten to dump all those easy rotting rubbish away.
Now i know why my darling always ejek me lembik. While i was trying to wash the dishes, an aweful smell STROKE my nose. I quickly ran away from kitchen, then i hold my breath and rush back in and dump the plastic bag farer. I then continue my job.
I wonder if you all have noticed about this or not, when you are so desperate for something, you usually won't be able to get it. UNTIL u've already given it up, things that you were trying hard to get before this, will be everywhere surrounding you.
Weather here were so damn hot days before, was hoping for wind and rain at all time, but nothing happened. Until when i got back to my job--dish washing, wind started to blow, i felt cold, coz i was half naked. WOW, it was nice, and i was gonna start to sing. Within a second, i smelt something familiar. WHAT THE FUCK, the wind came into the kitchen with the aweful rotten food smell. I almost puked, kept on making the EOKKKK voice in the kitchen. Finally, i gave up my 1st starting job at home and ran back to my room with imba mood.
I complained this to my darling and she laughed at me T_T. But that's good for me, coz i love to see her laugh or smile, i always want her to be happy.
Forget about all these funny shits. Lets get back to the JOB. I'm gonna tell u about my NEW PLAN.
Hopefully it works this time. This weekend, I will go for shirt hunting. I forgot what people usually called that shirt as, so lets use my english again, IT'S THE FORMAL SHIRT. And i'm gonna get a printer too, for my resume, cv, bla bla bla.....
Then, i will make my calling starting from next monday. Aww.. susah my eyes, have to scan news papers for job vacancies again. I hope companies today need a handsomeboy, that will be easier for me XD. FULL OF SHIT!! (darling: WTF, mama give again?)
But before all these, hehehe... LET'S GO JAP FOOD HUNTING. I WANT TO WASTE MONEY FOR EXPENSIVE FOOD AGAIN. (hmm... why i used waste, it's because it is really a waste when good food come to me coz it won't make changes no matter how hard i try to become fat) I miss wasabi, i miss raw food, i miss, erh.. seaweeds? All these might be banned in July, so i have to rush and rush and rush before my resources are depleted. ANYONE WHO LOVE ALL THESE soon-will-be-banned-food PLEASE CONTACT ME, my phone is 24/7!!
Darling please forgive me, hehe... i can't give them up, coz i really love to eat jap food.
OHHH YAA!! There's 2 more things i almost forgot. The 1st is, I hope that, aussie can always have discounts for everything. Darling is suffering now T_T, she doesn't have much pocket money per month and she needs alot of chocolates. She is hoping to get fatter at all time, PLEASE GIVE HER DISCOUNTS. And the 2nd is, i hope steph ma will not be an accountant when she deals with her daughter's problem. GIVE HER MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
Aww... maybe 3? hehe.. I hope i can get a job as soon as possible. There's really so many things waiting for me to pay for my darling now. hehe..
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Friday, March 6, 2009
imba languages
Stephanie and i were talking to each other with many different languages today. It includes english ( 1 of her lanc tool), mandrin, cantonese, hokkien and hakka.
Same as usual, we both kept bull shitting around. Other than chinese, mandrin and hakka, i suck at all others. Trying to improve them now, so i can shoot at ppl.
As u all know, im old and im not good at other languaes, so it will be a lil hard for me to catch up when they are speaking. And because of that, alot of funny shits happen when i talk or type. Steph couldnt stop laughing, again =.= .
Although im not good at other languages, but u people dont try to scold me bad words. I know all bad words of other languages including tamil. Everything starts from the bad thing when it comes to language learning, don't you agree with that? That is the easiest for people who wanna learn new language.
Damn, i feel like learning all other languages now. My cousin from Canada kept on kacau-ing me by typing japs to me today. He even knows how to speak spanish too. WTF!! all these language classes are provided by his high school, FOC. Jealous-NYA
Awww, regret for not studying well now!! i want to learn!!! i want to studyyyy!! MOMMYYY!!
i hope im still young. hehe...
Same as usual, we both kept bull shitting around. Other than chinese, mandrin and hakka, i suck at all others. Trying to improve them now, so i can shoot at ppl.
As u all know, im old and im not good at other languaes, so it will be a lil hard for me to catch up when they are speaking. And because of that, alot of funny shits happen when i talk or type. Steph couldnt stop laughing, again =.= .
Although im not good at other languages, but u people dont try to scold me bad words. I know all bad words of other languages including tamil. Everything starts from the bad thing when it comes to language learning, don't you agree with that? That is the easiest for people who wanna learn new language.
Damn, i feel like learning all other languages now. My cousin from Canada kept on kacau-ing me by typing japs to me today. He even knows how to speak spanish too. WTF!! all these language classes are provided by his high school, FOC. Jealous-NYA
Awww, regret for not studying well now!! i want to learn!!! i want to studyyyy!! MOMMYYY!!
i hope im still young. hehe...
Thursday, March 5, 2009
1st post?
I couldn't believe that i'm here to blog again, not really like writing because im just too lazy to use my brain. Used to love writing alot about whatever happened in my life and my thought to express myself when i was still studying at high school, but all these can only be read by teachers whom i hate the most and be seen only in exam papers (such a problem kid). As time passes by, i started trying not to do so, it is because i find it stupid, it hurts people's feeling, and i might get myself in troubles.
My girlfriend steph, she loves writing and she always update her blog from time to time. I promised her to start blogging a week ago. In order to see her smile, i have finally registered an account here to start writing again. Of course, this will be different from what i've written to my teachers a couple years ago.
If you are close enough to me, you will find out that i'm a silly boy whose mind is full of shit, talk craps all the time and always fool around never wanna try to do anything seriously. My first blog is a very good reference.
But theres reasons why i wanted to write stupid things in my 1st blog. First is that my girlfriend--steph was forcing me to hand up a post( any post) before she sleep. Second is that, i don't really know what i should write, so i decided to bullshit and put my quote which is "im handsome" in the blog. And lastly is that, i want her to be happy. As i mentioned justnow, she loves blogging, and whenever i show her my imba pose(handsome), she will always laugh like mad, so i finally made up my mind to write an imba story as my first blog.
And now, im here again is because, i really wanted to start blogging like she does. I find it interesting, and when u cant fall sleep late at night, nobody is around, this will be the best place to express myself and fast forward my boring time.
Months ago, i always told her that i was so jealous because kc( steph's friend) could be that close to her and he was the only person that i know, she would talk to when she was down. I always wanted to see her cry. LOL, sounds like im a sohai freak but all i actually want is to get her trust, she will find me when she needs someone to talk to.
Weeks ago, i finally saw her crying. But i was not happy at all. I felt sad and depressed even though i have finally get her trust and became her boyfriend. I don't know what to do at all, i have never experienced it before( not including bully ah moi sampai tangis). After a long while, she finally stopped crying and fell asleep. I could not forget the scene when her tears dropping nonstop. I then talked to myself, i will never let this happen anymore.
Whenever i think about it, i won't be able to sleep again. She always tells me she will be fine, but i know she is lying to me again, trying to stop me from worrying about her. How could i not worry about her? She is my girlfriend, and she is at melbourne now, i can't do a thing to help her out when she is in trouble. I find myself so useless, don't know anything, can't solve problems and bla bla bla( too much to write). Hoping to go there as soon as possible, i wanted to stay with her, i wanted to hug her, kiss her and accompany her.
I hope she can be more optimistic( doesn't mean she is pessimistic), i hope she is fine now, i hope she can sleep tight everyday, i hope that her study won't be affected by shitty problems. And i love her as i always do. I love you steph
My girlfriend steph, she loves writing and she always update her blog from time to time. I promised her to start blogging a week ago. In order to see her smile, i have finally registered an account here to start writing again. Of course, this will be different from what i've written to my teachers a couple years ago.
If you are close enough to me, you will find out that i'm a silly boy whose mind is full of shit, talk craps all the time and always fool around never wanna try to do anything seriously. My first blog is a very good reference.
But theres reasons why i wanted to write stupid things in my 1st blog. First is that my girlfriend--steph was forcing me to hand up a post( any post) before she sleep. Second is that, i don't really know what i should write, so i decided to bullshit and put my quote which is "im handsome" in the blog. And lastly is that, i want her to be happy. As i mentioned justnow, she loves blogging, and whenever i show her my imba pose(handsome), she will always laugh like mad, so i finally made up my mind to write an imba story as my first blog.
And now, im here again is because, i really wanted to start blogging like she does. I find it interesting, and when u cant fall sleep late at night, nobody is around, this will be the best place to express myself and fast forward my boring time.
Months ago, i always told her that i was so jealous because kc( steph's friend) could be that close to her and he was the only person that i know, she would talk to when she was down. I always wanted to see her cry. LOL, sounds like im a sohai freak but all i actually want is to get her trust, she will find me when she needs someone to talk to.
Weeks ago, i finally saw her crying. But i was not happy at all. I felt sad and depressed even though i have finally get her trust and became her boyfriend. I don't know what to do at all, i have never experienced it before( not including bully ah moi sampai tangis). After a long while, she finally stopped crying and fell asleep. I could not forget the scene when her tears dropping nonstop. I then talked to myself, i will never let this happen anymore.
Whenever i think about it, i won't be able to sleep again. She always tells me she will be fine, but i know she is lying to me again, trying to stop me from worrying about her. How could i not worry about her? She is my girlfriend, and she is at melbourne now, i can't do a thing to help her out when she is in trouble. I find myself so useless, don't know anything, can't solve problems and bla bla bla( too much to write). Hoping to go there as soon as possible, i wanted to stay with her, i wanted to hug her, kiss her and accompany her.
I hope she can be more optimistic( doesn't mean she is pessimistic), i hope she is fine now, i hope she can sleep tight everyday, i hope that her study won't be affected by shitty problems. And i love her as i always do. I love you steph
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